While I'm Waiting

It's been awhile since I was really able to write about my thoughts and about my life. Some might probably wondering why was I not able to write for the month of January or if you haven't notice it perhaps now you might be looking at my archives. hahaha Well, it's not that I intended not to write anything or I forgot. But I just don't know where to start and how to begin the year. The last two months before my 2012 ends was the most challenging. I was down facing my past sipping into my life again. The reconciliation of a past and promises that was trying to revive itself. It was my ex. So I asked: "How can God take away something in my life and bring it back so fast?" I was really confused but I was hopeful. When I finally met him this month; we talked, cried, laughed. But above it all "we changed" my heart had been poured out and he was just there to listen. It was really a relief. And I thank him for it. Walking in faith will never be easy but I believe God has called us to be forgiving, to be courageous and to be faithful of God's promise. God wants to write our love story based on His terms not ours and like what I have written in my previous blog "My-so-called-love-story" let God hold the pen of our lives and just wait on God.

The Bible says:

"Wait on the LORD: be of good courage,

 and he shall strengthen your heart"

~ Psalms 27:14

..... Remembering the night we talked was still a fresh but I am hopeful. We might have lost love in a partner based relationship but we have reserved friendship. I recently attended a seminar "While I'm Waiting" and it was very timely. The adorable couple Ptr. Joseph and Rica shared relevant key points on what to do while we are in this "waiting season" and it was inspiring. One of my favorite was the 3 Threads: 

"Though one may be overpowered, 

two can defend themselves. 

A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

~ Ecclesiastes 4:12

...... For some strange reason I was not able to take down notes during the seminar but I will share it based on what I can still remember. Feel free to give any feedback after reading this. The 3 Threads composed of: You, Spouse and God. 

YOU

....... How is your relationship with God?

....... Identify your purpose and your preparedness.

....... Are you the person you're looking for? 

........"It's not about looking for the right person, it's being the right one"

SPOUSE

....... How's your spouse walk with God?

....... Are you ready to give - up everything for this person.

....... Loving your spouse is a decision, a covenant.

........If you hurt your spouse, you hurt yourself because you are one.

GOD

........ Should be the center of your marriage/relationship.

........ Because when God is at the center nothing will ever fail.

....... It's very exciting how God wants to stimulate the longing of being the right person but also to focus on God and just wait on Him. A reminder to obey in God's word and to abound in His love as Rica said "Your partner should be an overflow of God's love in your life" I couldn't agree more. What can we share if we ourselves are lacking?. What love is there to offer if there's not enough love to give? With sufficient love from God we have plenty to sustain it. The key is to stay in love with God. And the right kind of love will come because we know it will. Because God promised it.  (Jeremiah 29:11)

I leave you with "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller praying these will remain in our hearts and wait patiently in obedience, serve others and worship God while waiting. 

"I'm waiting on You, Lord and I am hopeful though it is painful but patiently, I will wait. I will move ahead, bold and confident taking every step in obedience. And most importantly to serve, worship You while I'm waiting."

Also read my previous blog: My Valentine

My Valentine

"Love Month" as people call it, whenever I think of Valentine's day a picture came to my mind. A bouquet of flowers with balloons, chocolates on the side with little love you card and of course lots of hearts.... ^_^ We have branded "Valentine's Day" with all sweet and mushy stuff. Which I know "we" women would agree we love the gifts and all the mushy stuffs. hahaha But to me, this day is extra special because not only it's Valentine's day but it's also my birthday. And this year it's more meaningful because I finally realize why God had chosen this day. Let me give you a brief background:

I became amiss in my definition of love growing up coming from an only child background I came to understand that love was one - centered. Constantly seeking for affirmation and affection. Shallow and superficial there was more often than not feelings of "unloved" without really understanding True love...



But the bible tell us:

"Whoever does not love does not know God,

 because God is love."

~ 1 John 4 : 8

..... All along I thought love was merely emotions and feelings I can earn from someone but as I came to know the truth, the only love one will ever need in his life is "God" and everything else will follow.. In my blog Holy Week I have emphasized the true essence of where it all started knowing "God's greatest act of love". (John 3:16) And being born on a heart's day, will forever remind me that even if I felt I was unloved. God made my birth date on the day love was best commemorated. It was as if God knew I will grew up to be love dependent. hahaha ........

"If you seek LOVE,

FIND God.

If you seek GOD,

You will find TRUE LOVE.
And if you FOUND true love,
SHARE God's LOVE."

~ Mhelai Padawel

.....On this Valentine's day I only have one encouragement. One will never find true love when one don't seek God. The best mentor to teach us how to love is God himself. What qualities to look for in a future husband/wife? here are some useful reading tool for Men read Woman of Beautiful Values which encourages how women should be valued and how God values them. And for Women read Job 29 Man for  enlightenment on what qualities to look for a man of "God-character" not just "good-character". We sometimes look at love as something magical and fictional but actually "God" (love) was only waiting for us to accept Him and acknowledge Him. He was with us all along who continue to love us unconditionally yet we ignore His call. If we start knowing Him now. Then love will overflow we can't share something we ourselves don't have. If we focus ourselves on God He will handle everything else. Like a light house that will continue to shine while crossing the path of the unknown. With His light, He will secure us a safe journey. We only need to obey and trust God... 

Sharing you my background while writing this blog. "When God Made You" ... ^_^
An encouragement that someday I will have someone to sing it with...

Also, read my previous blog: My-so-called-love-story

My so-called-love-story

Since its "Love Month" I actually have a treat. I have posted this on my other blog and I believe it's perfect timing to post it here.... ^_^




It's going five months now, since we finally call it "OVER".... Writing this story felt a twitch in my heart, I am trying to understand how my heart is feeling right now... You see, 11 days from now... I'm supposed to be a "wife" we had that day reserved in one of the hotels in Manila six months ago and I was so busy preparing for the big day... But if you have watched "Bride Wars" you would understand when I say "preparing for a wedding can either break or make a couple, if they survived they are meant to be together" that's more like our story. You know, I can still feel jitters not because of the excitement but somehow I feel a scar starts to bleed again. Its never easy to forget almost six years of building dreams, future plans, and adjusting each others needs to meet "our needs". It was altogether a piece of heaven and the opposite, good and bad memories, beauty and not so beast... hehehe But nevertheless, I have forgiven him and myself. If I had to see him now, I would smile and say "hi". You see, I never regret we met and it happened because I believe it was all part of a plan "God's plan".


The Bible says:


"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

~ Jeremiah 29:11


..... Whenever worries and sadness cross my heart in a bliss, I would remind myself of these words. Pray and thank God for His words of encouragement. You know, I don't even remember what started our fights and how or when did it all started. But a gap swell so huge we couldn't keep up with the space. But God is good, He showed how love should be. "Unconditional" just like our God, He knows the plans He made, He knows the beginning and the end. And he wants us to obey, wait patiently and trust Him fully because He has prepared something greater.

"You continue to get your heart broken 

because you are holding the pen of your life 

and trying to write your own story. 

I am the "author of true love. 

I am the creator of romance. 

I know your heart's every desire. 

I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, 

but first you must give the pen to Me. 

You must let Me become the center of your existence. 

You must let Me have total control of your love life, 

and every other area of your life as well" 

~ When God Writes Your Love Story~

Eric and Leslie Ludy

.... On this blog, its more of an ordinary story of my life. People sometimes does not really care about, but to some might be a useful tool to get information. But to me, this is where I share pieces of my everyday life. I never intended to be a writer but if God calls me to do it... I will do it for Him....



Also read my previous post: Courageous